We haven't filed the paperwork yet, but we will be filing it soon~
Our LLP will incorporate our individual sole proprietorships and our joint endeavors, including the homestead and our Medarmory!
"What's the Medarmory?" you ask~
Stay tuned for more info at a later date!
If you wanna meet us? We'll be at Rural King's farmers market this Saturday from 11am to noon.
Hope to see you there!
I've had a roller coaster of a two weeks...
I knew that cutting the rest of my hair would lead to the release of old energy, but I was woefully unprepared for the magnitude of the flood that was triggered...
Not only did the echo of the old energy I once endured sound, but new aches that had been silent for decades made themselves known. I knew of the multiple physical injuries to my right shoulder... but I was unconscious of the silent, frozen, emotional trauma that was stored in my left shoulder. Now it feels as though my entire upper body is compromised by deep scars that radiate out from two epicenters of injury, criss-crossing over my arms, chest, and back like barbed wire to restrain my movement and cause further pain.
Not only did I collapse twice at work in one week, but I ended up having to call an ambulance the second time for fear of becoming catatonic yet again....
Thankfully... my new employer and team has been extremely empathetic and understanding.
They were more worried about me than my own father has been, going so far as wanting to move my motorcycle inside the store to protect it while I was in the hospital, then being shocked when I showed up for work early the very next day. Not only did they allow me to work my full shift at my own pace, they continually told me not to overdo it while I was there. Even the customers were surprised and full of understanding!
Seriously... "hypochondriac", my arse!
A hypochondriac wouldn't be collapsing in agony simply from trying to work a regular shift!
Back to my left shoulder though....
The amount of trauma that is stored in my feminine is far more than I once realized... It brought about dreams full of grief, testing, and allegories of the repeated trauma patterns that I've been trying to break free of. They were so painful to witness that I woke up in tears with a rebound migraine and full body pain so bad that I was forced to take 600mg of ibuprofen AND 50mg of sumatriptan with breakfast this morning, then lay down for yet more rest. Thankfully... this combo worked and I was released from the grip of pain enough to go out and get groceries...
Anyway...
Moral of the past two weeks?
Be careful with what you release energy-wise... It may be more than you are prepared to handle in the moment and can come with unforeseen consequences. Healing is not easy.... and can often come with more pain than you'd prefer to endure. However, it is worth it if you wish to grow and build a better future for yourself and those around you.
No more looking back.
From now on I am only looking forward.
With every step I take towards healing mentally, I'm learning just how much of my trauma and suffering is in part due to chronic illnesses that have gone undiagnosed and unchecked...
With the help of DeepSeek AI I'm finally starting to make sense of it all.
I've been diagnosed with PCOS, which runs in the family along with migraines and arthritis, but I also self-diagnosed with PMDD before doctors in Japan confirmed my suspicions. I was diagnosed with NeuroCardioGenic Syncopy when I was 23, but that's just another subsect of Dysautonomia, like PMDD and my other diagnoses. On top of that? I was diagnosed with a Craniocervical Instability and Hypermobility in University... which are comorbidities with Autism, ADHD, and Dysautonomia; the only 3 things I've yet to have confirmed by doctors because they can't believe that that's the issue. They'd rather label me as a "hysterical" and "bipolar" female! Add to all that the fact that I was raised in a chaotic household where trauma was handed out like candy while love and understanding were withheld?
And you have the perfect recipe for explaining precisely why I am the way I am today... including the catalepsy that DeepSeek just picked up on from some of my life experiences!
Only now after sepsis? It's grown into a verifiable disability...
I literally only just recovered from being all but catatonic for a full 16hrs...!
IT TOOK 2 WHOLE DAYS OF REST AFTERWARDS!!!
All because I got slammed with a sinus infection, dysautonomia from two overly stressful days at work over the weekend, AND PMDD all at the exact same time! I tried to work on Monday, but after only 2hrs on my feet I was seeing double, unable to think clearly at all, and all but collapsing! I had to immediately leave and come home. As soon as I ate and laid down? I was unconscious for 16HRS, almost straight. I only woke up when maintenance came banging into the apartment to do their sprinkler check... and the guy took one look at my face and steered well clear of me, thinking me contagious.
"A hypochondriac", my arse!
Next time someone says or tries to imply that? I'm taking their MFing head off!!!
Just because I "look healthy" and "appear fit" at 41... DOESN'T MEAN I CAN'T BE STRUGGLING WITH CHRONIC ILLNESS!!!
I may have wracked up thousands in doctor's bills without insurance trying to figure this sh*t out, but I'm getting to the bottom of it. Now all I need is a genetics test to confirm my suspicions, since doctors are refusing to listen to my insights or conduct the tests I know they need to in order to check. I swear. I'm only ever working with female doctors from now on, unless the guy is a feminist and proves he's on my side. I've dealt with so much f*ing misogyny in my life, even in the medical field, it sickens me!
NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU KNOW TO BE TRUE!!
Just because others refuse to see or believe doesn't mean a damn thing!
They're just blind and refusing to see your point of view!
PROVE THEM WRONG!!!
A lot of people go on and on about productivity, making money off of what you do, and all I can think is, 'Ugghhh! No, thank you! Whatever happened to simply creating just to create?'
That's why I do so much freely without expecting anything in return~
I simply love to create!
It's been the hardest thing in the world for me to charge people for my creations, including my written works. I've only been able to ask for the bare minimum, because in my heart I simply want others to enjoy what they receive from me. I wasn't even going to create paperbacks for my books, but then others insisted that I do. It's also why I refuse to monetize my blog and now offer my FanFic(s) freely to the world to read.
I know everyone is struggling right now and that the economy sucks, so I make sure to price my work in such a way as to be affordable, without disrespecting myself and my efforts in the process. I love to create so much that I often only charge for materials plus like ten or twenty bucks!~
It's fun for me!
I'm not gonna charge people out the arse to feed my creation addiction!
Are you kidding me!?
However, I do not fault other creators for charging the prices they do~ We each must support ourselves and many depend on their creative work to survive. In this economy, I understand the costs of creating. I just keep my lifestyle and expenses low, while working full-time. That way I'm not dependent on my craft to survive. That kind of stress would utterly destroy my motivation! Honestly? If we had a universal living wage? I would sit at home all day doing nothing but writing and creating lavish works of art from the community around me! But... The US doesn't have that option... so I do what I can with the time and energy I have~
I encourage others to do the same!
LYDANGU!